Just wanted to vent about yesterday. Robbie and I had a horrible day and we know it is just satan messing with us. We were on top on the world on tuesday night with meeting with birthmother counselor. Then we woke up to a totally different day everything was falling apart for us everything we tried to do went wrong. There was so much that happen some we can't share.Then we spoke with lawyer and she wants to meet with us in the next two weeks to retain her finacially now since our BM is nearing in on the end. We are not having the yard sale until the 3 and 4th. I feel that our BM will deliver in October because she didnt know when her last cycle was so they plus/minus two weeks. It is just so stressful right now..Robbie and I both felt defeated yesterday we were a blubbering mess. We are in a little pit right now...Robbie and I both feel that the harder we try to get ahead and do the right thing the further we get behind finacially. It is also very defeating to know that we have to sacrifice so much financially to get a baby to love and so many people take that for granted and just "have a baby" and then if they don't want one go and have an abortion and make it all disappear. But here we are wanting a baby and feel that God has totally answered our prayers only for this to put us deeper in debt just to obtain our baby. WE know that is not in his plan but when you are in the midst of it all it is just really hard...We just have to come up with the money on the front end of it all. Not only is it expensive to have another baby with diapers and formula but we are already behind the eight ball....I am sorry to just rant about our lives right now...THIS is the biggest blessing in our lives and we know that it will all work out for the best. God has our backs but yesterday was really hard for Robbie and I. Today is a new day and so far it is somewhat better. We have CR tonight so hopefully we can get out of our funk!!!
Thanks for all the prayers !
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